Angry rant on irritating random news articles ......

I am angry .... I am any one of those many angry faces that is sick and tired of people entering my personal space... I was bullied as a teenager and now I see that happening with others.... There are so many things that this society imposes on us from culture to religion to being cool to doing what is expected.... The worst part is that expectations come from both ends.... I don't want people asking about my sex life....or expecting me to be open about it on forums or have one ..... Why the hell is my virginity a thought ur mind..... I may be 60 and a virgin....or i may hv had sex at 20... Back off... I don't want to be expected to cook or always be neat....but I also don't want to be expected to drive.... Why should I be considered a modern girl only if I can drive or party or dress up/down....and before those 'cultured' people cheer I do not want to be told that that is how girls should be...cos one day I might change n chose to drink smoke or just let go ... who the hell are you to tell me ... So ur concerned about me...really??? Unless ur one of my parents or one of those who called up to check on me.... N ran to help me at my lowest u hv nooooooooooo right to say that...... 

I think about my past ... How I am so glad I m no more in school... How we had such a gap between people... The way girls just wanted to bully for their amusement and instead of teaching or learning from someone different - they ridiculed them because they were ignorant.... M so glad for the internet ....that today kids learn things without being on the spotlight .... I hate it that we are now letting the government screw us on that front too.... We hv police entering hotel rooms and pulling out consenting adults ..... We hv boys being shamed and misdirecting their anger and frustration ....we reward children for the wrong reasons...as adults or peers....I am angry ....and I just am getting tired of the regression ... I was so happy seeing things being brought to light.... And then a random news/fact crops up that makes me realize we are getting shittier by the day...... As individuals we are being pulled in many directions and expected to excel in each.... We have to be rambunctious and cautious all at once... 

Enough.... Schools over.... Let's just leave people be... Let's not decide for them.... U...yes YOU... U don't know what the person next to u went through... I don't care if ur the parent the spouse or the best friend.... U weren't there for every second of that persons life... So quit judging and quit teaching....yes help people.... But let them take the final call....don't make one for them.... N unless ur being harmed because of it... Don't the fuck make them do things they don't want..... Please.......

And v/s Or

Can happiness and excitement be mutually  exclusive? 

I've have been waiting for 8 years for something that is now on the verge of happening. And even though I am looking forward to it -  I don't feel excited. I am really happy, not the kind that makes you glow all day.....but the kind that makes you satiated, complete.....I do randomly smile ....and I think it'll all go smoothly, and yet.... I hate the fact that I can't feel that tingle....

It's all like a well fitted glove - tailor-made: known and comfortable. It's new and yet somehow...old.... Think of it as a dress you plan to wear on a special day - you plan from scratch, pick the material, choose a design and find the right tailor to make it just the way you want it. You know it's a perfect fit for you, you've worked on it for over a month. Of course you're happy, it's just what you wanted - it's new..just not novel..... and no I am not unsure...just confused with reality...

So here...I ask again - Can happiness and excitement be mutually exclusive?

The shut down

Did you hear about that rape.... Hey game of thrones trailer is AWESOMEE....how the perfect boyfriend/husband woke his girl with a puppy...10 ways towards home improvement......

And so the mind whizzes....somewhere at the back a thumping...a realization that there's a bit more..something to stand up for..something to put that white screen as far away as possible...and even so with sore eyes a pen wasn't picked....

bosses aren't so bad...

So a buddy of mine told me a story about his TL who got him to join a fun office club.

My friend was crazy about cricket and tried to sneak in a peak uring or hours.. problem was his TL never quite allowed them any fun time on the computer.

The team kinda got frustrated and used fake phone calls to send their TL on different errands.

The TL eventually got the idea and decided to follow the saying..'if u can't stop em...join em'

And since then they all pitched in for a recording device and kept a t20 match a day to watch during a 2 hour break time.



how cute!

The death of innocence.

"Heard of that kid abroad. This boy killed his fellow students just for the heck of it. What a shame!” was a comment I heard two days back. Yeah isn't it kind of true. Such shootout cases happen to kids abroad, not our precious little children who have been brought up in India.

But yesterday's shootout dispelled all myths. Azad Yadav along with his friend Vikas shot their classmate Abhishek in school. The pain of Abhishek's parents cannot be understood how so ever much we try. Their anger or shock cannot be put into words. They lost a son and on an issue where such an outcome seemed outrageous. I mean who thought that a school fight, a common sight seen across generations, could lead to a cold-blooded murder.

But right now I want to look into a totally different aspect to the whole incident. There was an article that had come out a few days back on how video games and TV have started showing violent and sexual content thereby harming the mental growth of the youth today. Such games lead kids to believe that killing is an easy way to end misery and that it's ok to use violence to get one heard.

Seeing murder and sex on a daily basis has made them a 'no-big-deal' thing these days.

But then we can't just blame the generation alone it's the whole society now that needs to take the blame. Today kids are being subjected to a lot of pressure, be it peer pressure or pressure to out-perform everyone in every field be it education, sports or other extra-curricular activities. What they need is someone who can help them out without making them feel intimidated or disgusted (read molly-cuddling teachers or over-zealous 'councillors').

These folks need help but it needs to be given very subtly. Psychiatry or Psychology may sound as great professional subjects but not many in India like to visit psychiatrists/psychologists. The discomfort stems from the fact that people believe that these doctors are for the mentally ill or to be more colloquial 'pagal' people. What they don't realise that the guys are just regular doctors who need to be visited ideally on a daily basics. Like we have family docs in India, in the US and UK most families have their own psychologist. It's a must these days.

We should stop being so arrogant as to think that the people in our society don't need it and that those people out of India suffer such mental problems solely because they have a casual lifestyle unlike ours. We still love to live in that dream world where we live perfect lives of dutiful sons, daughters, fathers, mothers etc. Unfortunately the reality is far different. We are in as much need of these doctors as anyone else across the globe. Once we accept that a lot of such problems would cease immediately.

Now back to the shootout incident.

What was Azad thinking when he was about to kill Abhishek? Why didn't anyone send all the three kids off to counselling as soon as that physical fight occurred? Had they not seen the basic fact that a physical fight meant that things had gone out of hands of the school authorities and that merely calming them at that moment or handing out punishments would not suffice?

A lot has changed in a child's psyche from what it used to be in yester years. Today children have far more responsibilities and choices in life. They can choose from a million pathways thereby they either may attain worldwide glory or might end up as Azad did... in jail.

I dunno what I have inferred from all that. Just that I strongly feel that we need to realise that such incidence won't be stopped unless we accept the faults in our society. Yes this is a great nation but it too is made up of human beings and like I said earlier in today's life we need counselling to deal with the pace and stress that comes as an excess baggage.

A story I've heard..

...sadly one time too many...I am sure you must've heard your own version of this lil story


A new mother...in love with her baby...she splashed pictures of the angel....everyone loved her...her precious lil girl...that was all she had wanted all her life....she was happy...her family was overjoyed and her friends both amazed and a lil envious...she knew that.....she understood...but she couldn't help showing her gorgeous cherub.

one day she too her for a bath...she had just bought a lovely pink dress...but her princess was very cranky today...she cried and cried...there was only so much her mom could take....

and then...

*DING*......ooooooooooo someone 'liked' her picture....she made sure there wasn't any soap in her baby's eye then ran off for a quick thank you.....


*DING*
crying......
*DING*
crying....
*DING*
crying......
*DING*
crying....

...
...her angel was crying...just 2 more mins...after all her mommy's gonna make her the most popular baby in her group ....

*DING*
*DING*
*DING*
...

and she realised there wasn't a sound...

she ran to the bathroom..the bathtub was overflowing...the water gushing loudly.....but all she heard was the silence.....no crying...no gurgles....nothing....

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